Office Halloween Treat Day

Office
Treats:
Oreo Chocolate Pudding,
Pumpkin bread, Pumpkin Cake, Pumpkin Struessle,
Rice Crispy Treats, Doughnut Holes,Chocolate Pretzles,
White Chocolate Covered Peanut Butter Cookies, Chips and Dip,
M&M's, Cereal Chocolate Chunks, Juice, Chex Mix, Candy,
Fortune Cookies - Live your life to the fullest and
treasure every little detail!
Happy Halloween

4:00 AM Paper

Last week I was in a crunch to get me paper done and turned in the following day. Ryan took this picture of me around 9:00PM -- when I had about 10 pages to go! I finished the paper at 4:19 am...talk about procrastination!

I look really bad but it makes me laugh. I think that we should allow ourselves "ugly days". If in fact I have had about 3 weeks of "ugly days". In fact, everynight as my belly falls to the bed when I lay on my side I just want to scream! "YEAH...I love feeling fat and ugly!"...Truthfully I can't stand it..why can't I just stay one size! Now I know I am not fat but the issue lies in that I gain ALL my weight in my stomach so, I change jeans sizes way too often.

So my solution was to lose just 1 pound a week. It has been 2 weeks and I have managed to gain 2 more pounds! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Maybe it is my rock hard muscles tonning up and not my belly!

As a disclaimer and I am greatful for the body I have...It could be worse...I just need a poor me moment...but now I am over it!

The next Day, going of 3 hours of sleep (notice the bags)

In the distance I hear the solem sounds of chanting monks. My office is virtually empty and I have just finished reading emails. When Ryan woke up this morning happyiness filled me... "SATURDAY" ...yeah. I rolled over and waited for his return from the bathroom, but as the sound of the shower blasted into our bedroom I knew he was getting ready for the day? Oh, I turned over, he has a young mens thing. Fine no cuddles! I burried my head in his pillow. Moments later, "you are not up yet!"...no answer..."well I have to go" - pray, scriptures, and kiss. The sound of the falling rain massaged my thoughts as I drifted back to sleep. Then I remembered... "FRIDAY" it is Friday!

Well, I can't complain at least it is not Monday.

Overloaded

Yesturday I taught my first real live class in real live college with real live students! I think I did real live bad! HAHAHAHA I am critical - I know - but I get nervous when I do stuff I have never done before...if fact I have a pattern of failing the first try and excelling the second!

First Kiss...sucky....second definately better

First tryout for play production...did not make it! Second time...I was in---whoot whoot!

Cheer tryouts...first time was a no go...in fact it was the first time that my eye twitched uncontrolablly from nerves...what was I thinking! Well there was this big drama and tryouts were done again that year and guess what...."L - E -T - S G - O, Lets go, Lets Go!"

First Impressions...these are sketchy, but the second times are always better.

First tests...yept not too good, second tests.... still not too good (so this one doesn't count)

First Marriage.... Just kidding that is the one thing that I will only do once and it is going as great as if I had been married a second time.


So, I have two pages done of a 12 page paper that is due tommorrow morning at 8:00 am. The funny thing is I still have no motivation to write about the implications of counseling supervision...go figure!

Nauvoo Potatoes

6-8 Medium Potatoes (baked in the oven or microwave)
1 cup melted butter
1 large onion (diced)
1 can of cream of chicken
16 oz sour cream
1-2 cups shredded cheddar cheese (I use 2 cups because I love cheese, but it is still wonderful with one cup)

After potatoes are baked and cooled, peel of the skin and shed them into a large bowl. Once they are all shredded, in another bowl combine: onion, cream of chicken, sourcream, and cheese. Then pour melted butter over the shedded potatoes. Fold in the onion mixture and then place in greased 13X9 baking dish. Bake at 350 for 30 minutes uncovered.

So yummy!

Red Lights and Nauvoo Potatoes

So in order to get to the North side of town where Cassacade Park, the Church, and all things down town are; Ryan and I have to drive through 9 stop lights! All about two blocks apart. Depending on the day this can be a good thing: if I need to do my make up I get 9 stops to apply (stop one eyeshadow, two concealer, three blush, four eyeliner, five mascara). But usually I get all greens - all the way so these lights don't bother me too much. On the other hand, every time Ryan drives he gets red light after red light after red light. With each light he gets angier and kurt! I can't help but laugh as his ears turn red
and he yells "oh come on!"

Friday night we were on our way to a church picnic. I had made my favorite cheesy Nauvoo Potatoes for the potluck and was dying with hunger...oooooooohhhhh they are so good (Ryan's moms recipe). Normally Ryan would drive but I decided to, so we could avoid the red lights that he normally gets, unfortunately his curse rubbed off on me and I got every red light! And of course Ryan got upset...(not livid - he was just cursing all the darn lights). This conversation then followed:

Juliana: You know these lights are here to teach you patience
Ryan: Then why are you getting all the reds?
Juliana: Well, there lots of fun things to do at red lights!
Ryan: Like what?
Juliana: Like pretending you are swimming in yummy warm Nauvoo Potatoes (pretending to swim with my mouth open chomping on potatoes)
Ryan: You're crazy!
Juliana: Ohhhh hot potatoes....What could you pretend while at a red light?
Ryan: That it's green!

The Frost Begins

Scarves, Hats, Gloves, Hot Cider, Hot Cocoa, Snow Flakes, Christmas, Cuddling, Fireside, Turkey, Gifts, Sweaters, Pumpkins, Sleds, Family, Blankets, Ice, Narnia, and so much more... I love the beginning and ending of every season.

Should I Go Out to Eat

The Snow Lion is a Tiebetan Restaurant in town. Ryan is there right now eating with a visiting professor and a friend. The rule is that we eat out once a week! So does this mean that I can forgo my canned beef stewfor lunch and eat out myself?

I just have no self control...I love eating out and right now eating stew does not sound yummy...I need someone to influence me and persuade me to just suck it up and enjoy the money we are saving...still there is this great little chinese restaurant 2 minutes away...I could have it for lunch and dinner...shouldn't I?

I don't like CANDY CORN...

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Depression

National Depression Screening Day (NDSD)

You may be asking yourself...what does this mean? Today was a screenning day for depression. So as a counseling intern I stood in the Arboridium of the School of Education for 4 hours, in 3 inch heels mind you, handing out blue lolly pops so that people could "Lick the blues away for National Depression Screening Day!"

At first it was fun, I thought of witty catch lines like "hey you looked depressed...come get screened" or "Does life suck...heres a sucker" hahahaha, no really, I did not say that at all I merely handed out pamphlets and suckers in order to hook fellow students into awareness of depression and to take a screening.

First I would say, "would you like a sucker?"

Then students would respond:

"I am on a diet"
"I have to go to class"
"No thank you"
"I already have one"
"I already know I am depressed"

I was amazed at how adverse people were to free suckers and a 2 minute screening...Then I thought to myself "I hate it when people try to hand me stuff or try to sell me something". I am awkard and worry that they are trying to trick me. Yes, trick me into buying 100 knives that cut pop cans. Or I would enter a harmless contest for a trip to Hawaii only to find weeks later my mail box full of credit card offers! Yet, I feel guilty when I don't give them my attention, they are just doing their job right? Am I selfish?

This of course was a learning expiernce, in that, I should be confident enough to listen to the nice man selling newspaper subscriptions and stronger to say no if I don't feel like it. So from here on out I will try to give some attention to the paper pushers and the candy givers!

Choosing

So, I have been on this kick of choosing between things. For instance "You have to give up chocolate or cheese for the rest of your life: which one do you give up" Or "You must give up seeing blue or green or blue or white...which one do you give up?...Well questions like this don't really matter and they bug the sanity out of my husband. but I just love them. In one way they tell you what is more important : chocolate or cheese, bread or pasta, blue or green there are just soooo many pairs (peanut butter or jam...) AHHHHHHHHHHHHH I could this all day... really!

So now I am thinking which would I rather have comfortable bed or a toliet....Well, tell me what you think...

Report

Well, today I don't feel so chubby, but last night after 2 burritos and them some I did feel definately stuffed!!!!!! Anywho, today is a good day as well.

I completely love my outfit:

Black round toe 1920's era shoes (3 inch skinny heels)
Patterned black stockings
Long black wool dress pants (boot cut and seem pressed)
White cotton and lace cammi
Dusty green tailor cut jacket
Natural Soft Make Up
Curly Long Hair

The down side is that I will work out after my last client today and the one person I want to impress wont get to see me all "dolled up"

Tisk Task!

Eight Doughnut Holes Later

I am sitting at my desk reading the news, my favorite blogs, and checking emails. This morning I rolled out of bed at 7:45. I washed my face, put some make up on, got dressed, packed my lunch and headed out the door. The only problem was that the night before I had locked my keys and wallet in the car . So, I grabbed some change, locked the auto lock (not the deadbolt), and headed for the bus.

Today is a good day because I have no clients so tonight I will be home at 5pm instead of 8pm. Because of the no client thing I was also able to wear jeans for the first time during a work week in a long time. Here lies another problem...I am not wearing my cute skinny jeans from last summer...but my fat jeans!!!!!!!!! I have managed to gain back all the weight I had lost the previous summer. Good thing I kept these jeans. To some extent I am not bothered by my little Budha Belly...rather I think of it as a battle wound of Grad School. So when I came to work and saw a giant box of doughnut holes I gladly filled my belly and thought "you deserve these - you hard working woman!" However, ask me tomorrow and I will tell you I am chubby, depressed, tired, over worked, and terribly wishing for a workout....by the way I have now eaten 13 dougnut holes